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November 30 UnemployedDear wordpress..I'm going to be unemployed during my holiday break after CNY....as none of my employers have called me for an interview ...not to mention not even a single email sent to my inbox....and my other friends have started going for interviews already!...T.T
And to think that they'll test my knowledge on audit or even taxation...the pressure is so intense ...it's palpable!...
Sigh.
i went shopping with teddy during the weekend. I was s determined to shop for clothes and shoes. But i didnt get anything i fancy. It's always like that whenever i prepared money for that purpose. And so , i ended up buying books ..the Twilight series...well not the complete set as the Eclipse was sold out! And i didnt get to watch the movie...because form five-mers were storming through every corners of kl into the shopping mall and movie theaters. ><
Oh well, i suppose i can enjoy my lil fantasy world as i indulge in those pages!!! NGIAK HAHAHA...
oh how i wish i was Bella Swan...
And then me and mum made plans to go shopping this weekend! YAY! so we'll go as early as 10.30 to avoid the crowd and then the next trip will be to Ikea to revamp lil bro's room and to change my blinds!
Oh well..thats for the update...toodles.!
Where does love go when it ends ...? Is it gone forever?
When love ends, it's not gone forever...
It becomes part of you...
When we were together, your emotions, your tastes.....
It used to be yours...
But now that i've realised, it has become part of me...
Your emotions, your tastes, it's also part of me now... September 30 PETROL = WATERApparently....my college thinks so... or else....why the hell would i have SIX FREAKING DAYS of CLASSES in a WEEK!?????
oh and btw, for Friday's class, i will only start my journey my college at the other end of Malaysia AFTER i HAVE my dinner.
Yes, i kid you not. It's a night class. By the time i reach home, it would be at least 9.00pm. Sigh. There goes my Friday night! The night i love of all nights!
AH yes, and then there's the Saturday lecture at 8am in the morning...wait .. wat? you want me to wake up before the crack of dawn and listen to lectures?.... i can only stare at my schedule in wonderment.
Did they plan this?! My guess is that those evil administration people have been planning this way ahead as punitive actions against the mutiny of the students of my course...complaining how the schedule sucks back in our diploma years and how we wrote letters against our law teacher .......
And its only one class per day for most of the days.
This sucks.
Im gonna go drink my ribenna to cheer myself up....
September 23 OMG..... this has GOT to be the most boring day of my entire life~!
Two weeks of hols gone, and im still here, doing nothing ...rotting. I've finished my assignment...just need to pass it to sonia to format and print it out and VOILA~ end of our misery of all miseries....to have an assignment during our holidays after all the torments from the exams.
sigh.
I have such a long list of items that i want to get , but as everyone knows, i'm not gonna get them at the end of the day cos .....with mummy's teaching ringing in my head constantly ..."always save...save for the rainny days..."
I highly doubt i'd be able to get the things i want so badly even tho i can afford them without my guilt eating me inside out.
And then yesterday.....i felicitiously opprtune upon this really really nice suede bag! oh how i wish i can own it there and then! and it's added onto my list of items tat i want to get. To have this hand bag, i really need to come up with an ostensible reason for owning it to surpress the sense of guilt within me. But hoW?! ?!?! i just got a new handbag this year!!! .... ><
I am greatly enamoured with the watch and the bag that i saw. but then again i still have so many other necessities that i need to get. aih, i must set my priorities straight.
Aiks. Im gonna be so broke by the end of the month.
And im so lazy i can cough blood all over my notes.
.................... September 15 Linger no moreHow long have i wasted mocking around and never finding what i really am?
When will i ever be someone else's moist shadow?
And in this life, why do loneliness bears yearning?
And with yearning, it only deepens the loneliness you feel even more...
Ah, but this hasn't been my story to tell for a long time now...
For my train is reaching its destination
And for now...i linger no more... September 09 LiberationYAY~!! WOOHOO!!! My misery has ended.....i think.
Exams have ended! I worked my butt off for the past few months and at the very end...i screwed my papers anyway. whats the point of even trying when all u can do....is stare balnkly at the article of your english paper and crapped it all out for the next 2 hours and THENNNNN not being able to finish that bloody paper.
Just when i thought i could brighten my results a lil more with my tax paper.... i wrote everything for the last two questions .......on impulse. Guess how " bright" that result could be !!! sigh..
I want to slaughter salmons to quench my thirst for an A in my final results....and with coursework marks like 69 over 100.....and the worst 36 over 60.....i might as well be prepared to work next sem because i dont think my scholarship will last any longer than the end of 2nd sem!
And moreover.....these results will be shown to my employer during practical training...im dead meat... imagine this..
" why is your english a C+..? Oh dear..i didn;'t see that coming from a scholarship holder like you miss vivien.."
=.="
i feel like killing tadpoles.
And now i have to work...sigh. life. oh yeah. i have to finish off my assingment to be handed up DURING the HOLIDAYS!
Yes...i kid you not.
Anyway...im hitting the gym right after my work! YAY! i guess that's something to be happy about!
Until then.....toodles bloggers! August 29 Thou shalt not........whine and complain about how exhausted you are for your exam....
Cos u only have two subjects to cover... while the others have 5 papers.
i must not complain.
i must not complain.
i must not complain.
Sigh, time used to crawl. But it seems to me that time is racing against something unknown to us on its own liltle track on full speed. And then again, i'm already 20. Crap, i kept thinking i was in Form 4. I guess the sweet 16 in me has never left after all. XD
Nisha intro me to a song by Jason Mraz and Colbie Callait...Lucky. It's about two best friends falling in love with each other. A really sweet song indeed. Reminds me a lot of myself and many of my friends back when we were in high school. I guess that's probably why i'm always still in my sweet 16 world.
Naive as we are, in our own little gang of friends back then, never knowing how vast the outside society could be, it seemed like the person that we would end up with is from our own gang of friends. how silly we were. Tons of guys fighting over that same cute and popular girl in school. Or the two best of friends from the prefect board and also our high school basketball team fighting over that atheletic and yet super cool head prefect..and ended up a torn between that supposedly strong bond of friendship.
Or even those 3 silly girls...secretly admiring that awfully good looking and smart basketball captain from afar. Knowing deep within themselves that he could be nothing more than just one of their best friends.
And then there were this best friend of mine, fallen deeply for that adorable little librarian...despite all the competition there were, he was by her side all those times, supporting here and was the greatest friend one could ever wished for. Despite being so in love with her, he knew that they were too close for comfort... Heartbroken as he was, he still managed to find someone special afterall. I'm happy for him.
Ah memories, what an indulgence they could be as one recall them with such a wave of nostalgia. ^^ August 12 A crackable ounce of joy....
Conversation with Wee Lee *wwf Lifespark(W) says: wee WEE LEE!!! *wwf Lifespark(W) says: im so happy *wwf Lifespark(W) says: my student is sick *wwf Lifespark(W) says: okay...wait..that doesnt sound right... *wwf Lifespark(W) says: urmm..*thinks thinks...* i am happy cos my student is sick and i dont have to go teach *wwf Lifespark(W) says: ...wait..still not right *wwf Lifespark(W) says: i am happy cos i dont have to go teach....cos my student is sick *wwf Lifespark(W) says: ^^ August 06 WOULDN'T IT BE NICE..................if i can have 48 hours a day?
Heck, that'd be too slow of a life for a girl like me. My world just seems to spin twice faster than other's. Why is that?
And an addition to that, my perfectionism is not helping at all.
Every little detail matters a lot, every flip of a page of my tutorials, i'd notice that my writing isn't how i wanted them to be, and thus, my entire studying mood aka my nerd mode would be interrupted. I'd loathe through out the course of my revision.
i need help...
Perfectionism is NOT AN ILLNESS!!!.....i would say. XD
But to others, it would just be like any other itch that keeps you irritated, and you can’t help but to give in to that itch and start scratching your skin.
Perfectionism has worn me out indeed. And i mean FLAT worn out. I can just slump onto my couch and nap for 3 hours , waking up and nap again. But until then, nap wouldn't be the correct word to use anymore. It should be ..." persistent craving for sufficient O2"...seriously, at times i am so caught up with my work, my schedules, my life..... i could barely stop and enjoy the itty bitty little things around me. I could barely stop to enjoy life. Out they go, in a gang, having dinners and karaoke sessions....and i was never informed about these happy occasions. Sigh , i feel like an outkast in my own gang of friends although they proclaim that i am actually the centre of attention, the astro of the gang.
I am nothing like that. I never knew both of my friends were off to Australia. I never got a chance to actually even KNOW about their farewell party. Blame it on my perfectionism!!!...as it has taken up to much of my time to make sure every little detail, every angle is in place….i want everything to be perfect… And thus, I never have enough time to actually go for outings with my friends…heck, I don’t even have time to actually DO other things….
Every hour, every minute has to be used wisely, i told myself, always. Either on practicing my piano or tutoring my student, preparing materials for assignments, studying, finish up my tutorials.and then….more studying. It's as if my world only revolves around these. The only part which i am NOT doing these is when i sing with my guitar, composing songs on my piano, laughing over jokes from Friends..watching movies on my laptop.......alone. And that's how im always left out on pasar malam cum mamak gatherings and slowly...got distant from my friends...
I perceive perfectionism as doing things the right way... but is perfect=right? Believe it or not, this equation has permanently etched onto every corpuscle of mine since...god knows when...
People perceive Monalisa as the perfect epitome of elegance ...with that slight sneer and calm portrayal. What would people say if Leornado Da Vinci hadn't painted a sneer on her face, instead , he painted a glowing smile?
Would Monalisa still be perfect?
July 21 Monday BluesDear bloggers,
Guess wat, i woke up late again today. I seriously think this course is wearing me out. I'm never late, but i was late TWICE in two weeks. Sonia had to wait for me outside for so long....ssheeesshh. And on top of that, my contact lense fell on the floor, i searched for it frantically and then gave up and decided to open up another one for my right eye. I do need a laser treatment for my high eyesight power soon...im like a blind mice without my specs.
Then, as if it's not enough...i stuffed my bread into my mouth while i scurried here and there packing up my lappy, packing my lunch (in which some of the fried rice fell onto the floor...and my dad was scolding me and nagging me all the way)....i had to be late for class as well due to the hectic jam!!!
We were half an hour late and ended up sitting behind the hall. And then i found out that everyone else was wearing full formal while i on the other hand was no where near formal...well..except for my shirt, i was strapped in jeans and my comfy flats...in which Sonia says i look like a cow girl without the boots and the hat. =.=" *ditto sonia! i don't appreciate that comment* LOL
After that, i had to cramp myself into the middle of the seats with lulu and ling where my bulky lappy and my backpack caused everyone's stuff on the table to drop as i squished in...and i was blithely unaware of wat i did. i bet i was such a unwanted distraction. eeesshh.
And i dont noe wat Michael Yeo is TEACHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 And he announced : " We will have a tax song. Every batch of my students did it. Ur seniors did it and it was pretty good. You and Vivien will help me compose a song entitled SAYA SUKA BAYAR CUKAI and we will sing it together"...
...............
Why does my life revolves around weird lecturers...??
BUT....finally, a COMMA in between all this nonsense in my Monday blues...
MY presentation was good! well..at least that's wat my eng teacher and oso my fellow classmates said..
haha.
Im Glad.
Miss OOi : Vivien, u have such nervous energy but today ur so calm. and ur presentation was good. have u ever considered of coming back to tarc as a lecturer? Have u ever considered teaching? You'll make such a good lecturer.
Vivien: *SMILESSSSSSSSSSSS* (HELLO NO AM I GONNA BE TEACHING...!)
XD
I like my new classmates...!! ^^ Nicol, Gilda and Ling Hui....they are such adorable little kids...! Kids...LOL.
Toodles~~!
July 19 FumesIm so depressed..or rather i hate everything, everyone right now.
Nothing seems to go my way. Everything and everyone is against me....everyone is conspiring against me. And my hatred is piling up inside of me.
These so called friends... now that i know to what extent these friends you can be close to. i'll remember my lesson well.
I can try telling you the details and the whole picture, because
And at the very end of the day, you'll know why...
I trust no one.
NumbLife is so difficult........
.....................For an aspiring accountant...
July 15 Harder to breathe...It sucks. I know.
I'm so sick right now. Down with flu and cough. I think a lot of ppl were sick after the convocation day we had on Sunday. WIll upload photo album soon. Anyway, Lulu collapsed today. She didn't come for classes. And i was there with Seh ling, missing one of our members. haha. The most annoying thing is where while me and ling are all numb towards the surrounding, Sonia and Wan Ying were discussing assignments at the other end of the hall ... WITHOUT US! how pissed and angry i was. EEEEEESSSHH!!!
I feel so dead. Cancelled my tuition today. Argh.... i hate my day.
Deadlines :
Week 8
1. Must finish PM grp assignment
2. Must finish PM individual assignment's draft
3. Start reading up on Advanced Ruling for tax individual assignment.
4. Must study tax
5.English presentation power point slides
Week 9:
1. English presentation
2. Hand in PM grp assignment
3. Piano exam this Friday
4. Must finish tax individual assignment
5. PM individual assignment
Week 10:
1. Hand in Tax individual assignment
2. Hand in PM individual assignment.
3. Study tax
4. Study FR
week 11:
TEMPORARY LIBERATION
..... i highly doubt i'd be able to achieve even 50 % of what i've planned above.July 10 Winged LifeI remember when i was still very young back then, my father used to chant this poem over and over again to me..I didn't know what it meant. If you could only read between the lines... you'd know how beautiful this short poem by William Blake is....perfection in its essence..
He who binds himself to a joy;
Does the winged life destroyed;
He who kisses the joy as it flies;
Lives in eternity sunrise...
i knew this poem from heart. Do u know what it meant?
It's about a story where this guy held a butterfly in his hands.The butterfly was such a pretty creature and he was so tempted to keep it.... however, he knew very well the longer he hold it, he would have crushed that little winged life to death. And so, instead of keeping it with him, he kissed the butterfly goodbye and set it free. The moment he opened up his palms, the butterfly fleeted away among the flowers and trees....he was amazed how much joy this butterfly would bring ...to see it flying freely.. instead of being trapped in his palms.
It simply meant,if something isn't yours, you should set it free. Things may not always turn out what you expect it to be. It may bring joy and happiness into your life. You may never know. To think that just by keeping it with you, u will be happy...think again, that little creature that you are keeping might suffocate. And if it dies, you will never have that joy of yours anymore. So why not set it free? If it comes back to you., it's yours. If it doesnt ..it was never meant to be.
July 09 i never knewi never knew that truth can be so excruciating.
i never knew that we had problem communicating. And i had to read that from ur blog.
i never knew one's feelings can change in just a matter of seconds....
Everything seemed so easy...a hat drop and i can have that life;...a stone's throw and it is mine.... I never knew how relentless heartaches can be... i just wish there's something for me to laugh about right now. Any crackable ounce of joy. Even the faintest and tiniest joy i have seems to be squirming through my fingers...try to leap out of my palms into the vast ocean of happiness in other ppl's life. Why is that?
I want to make decisions now but i know im in no state to be thinking or making any choices. i might regret it later.
I never knew i was such a burden. I never knew i was so controlling.
I never knew our foundation was so weak.
And the only reason you are coming back to me now is guilt. I know u too well.
i never knew karma is already catching up on me. But then again, i know i dont deserve any of these..any of these extra extra little things in life. I've been blessed with a great and healthy family and friends. It's a crime to have more than that.
So yeah, i dont deserve this. I dont deserve you.
you've created a wall between us. And i don't know how to remove this.
i never knew i wasn't good enough for you.
I'm sorry i couldnt make u happy. I tried my very best.
I never knew happiness could be taken away so easily.
I never knew memories could be crushed within seconds.
I never knew there were such rotten words and broken promises... May 30 It's alive!!!YES....my computer is alive!!!! Curse curse. i cannnot live without the internet~ The fact that the freaking lightning just cuts of the line....blasted my network card, my modem and also ...my router died cos of it....i'm still ok...cos my lappy is safe and sound in my room and has no damage or whatsoever from the whole lightning striking-trying-to-kill-a-dog-somewhere-on-the-road incident. ^^
i'm happy.=)
College started...as usual , the first week sucks. Not to mention the incorrigible idiots sitting behind me blithely unaware that they are so disturbing the ppl sitting in front of them aka...mua. i don't mean to be a cynic to their active participation in class...but to define active participation in their terms usually means shouting things like " OOH...AHH...WEEE" and things like that in response to the lecturers comments and questions upfront, in which i totally think that they are trying to outshine other coursemates and be in their little itty bitty limelight . tch. and i did return malignant looks at them cos they were from other branches. haha. sweet >.<
And to even have the thought that the official offer letter will only be out on....god-knows-when...is a headache! AFA which is the elite..ahem ACCA grp can only take in 385 students...and i think there are at least 450 students in the hall for the past four days is really torturing. Not only do we have to fight for the seats, we literally have to fight for the oxygen to breathe. At one point. i think the carbon dioxide in there is enough to burn a tiny hole in the ozone level. =.= YES..it's THAT PACKED~ though, i had fun sitting at the side staircases for the first two days when they were voting for the committees!
Well, with all these going on, chaos usually ensues. There will be this faint and then rumbling noise from the students whenever the course rep or assistant course rep announce something regarding our grpings and also the time table or when the lecturers said it was compulsary to buy certain books which cost a bomb. But hey, though im not in the popular class...aka...all the jan intakes grped themselves together and went "ooh...so fun! finally can mix around" heck. how is that mixing around when ur with all ur friends from the same batch!? stupid. my class, on the other hand, has students from branches and also lotsa may intake students! now that's mixing around!
And as usual, me, lulu and the gang will just play games on our mobile and let the world spin. Normalcy in the midst of chaos.^^ The intense mental fatigue and pressure in the hall when the course rep announced that we will only be getting out offer letter on ...god knows when and also that we might kick ppl out of the course since there are limited spaces was almost palpable! but it was totally worth the aneurysm in any of us..well..especially students in my grp..because my timetable is NICE!~~~~~ no late classes no super early classes!!!! haha.even the latest are until 3.30 or 4. But thats cos we start at 11 and 11.30! i can still have time in the morning to do tons of things! Some grps have night class til 7.30. Poor students.
Oh yeah, i manage to settle my tuition problems with laimun..and YESH! SHOO SHOO money sucking lady...remember her?!hehe.Well, i hope i could get to teach little kids more rather that older kids cos its really hard to re-build the foundation of their language since certain atrocious english and bm are permanently etched onto every corpuscle in them! sigh. kids.
Wish list for the year :
1.Shades
2.Watch
3.Purse
4.Heels
5.Laser for eyes
6.lots of students for me to teach so that i get more $$$
7.All 7 seasons of Gilmore Girls DVDS.
8.Unlimited supply of Adventist Wholemeal bread and also Olive oil margerin. (we are all gonna die from inflation ppl...)
9.Unlimited supply of honey.
10.Pass my ACCA papers at one trial.
11.Unlimited raisins
12.Pass my piano exam.... =S
Toodles.^^
May 20 A day of an ordinary life.Lifespark
 :1.Bought a new hp which is in red and black!( yes jasmin and ah moon! i have finally gave in to temptations and got myself a nice and cheap hp! XD)
2.Spent RM1150 on my teeth..
3.Spent RM150 on tuning Daisy
4.Got to use my hp credits wisely because i have been reloading oh so frequently ...like now...there is only RM3 left when the bar date is a week away.
5.Must get that Casio watch that i have checked out for so long once i get the bookprize for graduation! XD
6.is so broke..
7.watched :- The wedding Date, Nacho Libre, Stomp the Yard, Step Up, Lunch Queen, The first shop of Coffee Prince, Nodame Cantabile, 27 dresses.........currently following on ...*counts counts*...5 korean drama series..thanks to dad's koreanism wave lately.
8.Spent lots of $$$...on food...
9.Ate oyster, sushi, chicken chop, vege, salmons, fish fillet, drank shark fin soup, waffles, marshmallows n strawberrie dipped in chocolate, ice cream, fruits, jelly ....at the Sheraton Hotel's Buffet ...i uploaded the album btw.
10.is craving for pastries!!!
11. Can;t wait to go back to college!
12.Can't wait to attend my convocation!..ok fine..im so into it cos i was wondering if there is any book prize only lar! haha
13.Can't wait to use my A4 papers that i bought!
14.Can't wait to use the pens that i bought!
15. Dyed my hair red...but it isn;t striking enouhgh!!! sobs. i want my fringe to be striking red!
16. Love red all of a sudden
17.Can't wait to borrow novels from my library!
18.Can't wait to get over with my piano exam!
(you have no idea ppl, the intense mental fatigue and pressure caused by the exam is almost palpable! but it's worth the resulting aneurysm if it helps me to pass it...IF ..!! i give such lacklustre performances despite my relentless practising...ok..not THAT much..it's more of, practising piano, wanders of to watch tv..come back again...practise somemore, read novel, play games on hp, practise, online, pracitse, snacks, practise...but hey the method of perfecting a piece efficiently varies among ppl!)
At the end of the day, i slump down on my sofa, with a nice hot cuppa in my hand...ahh~...i seem to fall into this little world of my own, blithely unaware of the numb surroundings and all the things that i do in my daily routine and finally come to realise.....yes...it's another day of an ordinary life... May 07 Normalcy in the midst of chaos...Dear ppl, i have checked the cost to fix my hp. It's RM120. Bloody money suckers! And to think that my hp is worth any money..as in ANY MONEY AT ALL is totally ludicrous!
NOKIA COUNTER
Me : Hi, how much does it cost to fix my hp? i think it has some software problems.
Girl: Sure. It's RM120. Leave it here and come back and get it 45 minutes later.
*thinks hard*.....*scowls*
Me: Wow, so pricy. may i noe the trade in value for my hp?
Girl: No.
Me: Err....no? so...how low low is the value?
Girl: Err..No .. as in..no value at all...this hp is not in production anymore..
Me: (monologue) What the @#@%%%!!#!!!@#!#%
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damn...i hate dealing with money sucking ppl.
So, there u go. Another day of heartache. I really wanted to get a new hp (READ : nokia Xpress 5610). In fact , i mange to get a relly good price for an AP. It costs about 900 inclusive of a 2G memory card. I surfed the net and it was stated that an AP's price is within the rnge of 900-930. So, i noe very well that man is not overcharging me.
But sigh. Blame it on the bad economy. Once again, i must save...SAVE FOR THE RAINY DAYS. sad sob story of mine. The phone......everywhere i go...it follows me.. aiya ..oklar..it just basically meant that its popular and i just cant help looking at it when i see one. Sigh. A hat drop and i can have it. A stone's throw and it is mine.
But still...life goes on! haha..moving on....*kaching !* my ipod shuffle! OK , basically its not literally mine yet..i dont own one yet per say. Still, hope is in the air...if i manage to get that staff price that my fren has been telling me about, oh hell yeah im gonna get it! XD
If only i own the hp i wanted, it would be .....
1.My mp3 and hence there's no nid for me to spend on the ipod shuffle
2.My msn , as in i get to go online whenever i want to chit chat.
3.My game boy! Im so gonna install loads of games!
4.My camwhore machine.....and hence i dont have to bring along my bulky digi cam whenver i want to miang abit.
5.My dictionary as i can install so many softwares in it!
6.My everything when im on the go....sob sob
Hmm...my students that im tutoring are killing me btw.
Can't wait to get my new time table for advanced diploma!
Oh, i really dont know if i should renew my gym membership. Im not sure if i will go as often when classes resume. As u noe, all i will do is boil the notes and burn holes onto my piano. If i renew, well, yeah i can still work out for like 2 weeks before classes start but after that, i highly doubt i would leave my hse cos of my studies and my piano. oh how i hate dilemmas! wat should i do? should i renew?! or should i not?!
Oh yeah, the date is set. My exam is on the 25th of July. =.=" okay...how pathetic is that?! the exam is on the day one day after my birthday?!
how the hell am i suppose to celebrate my birthday when it totally coincides with one of the major life changing events in my life! okay, this maybe really exagerating...but trust me, i;ve waited long enuf for this day to come. oh , and if my frens ever asked me to go out so that they wanted to celebrate with me ...i will just go " oh, i have an exam tmr....y not u guys go celebrate my bday without me" =.=
Oh well....this is me...dilemmas, never once decisive and brave enuf to make just ONE choice! ...
Dilemmas in my life...normalcy in the midst of chaos.... =)
May 02 TAGS!Hey wordpress!
YES! YES! i know perfectly well i havent been updating for a while now. But good news~! My job for two months has ended~! WOOHOO! *jumps on piano*...^^
I can't believe Quo Wei Tagged me with this.>.< And here i am at 2.30 am in the morning , am blissfully posting the tags. XD... when i know perfectly well that i have to get up early to burn holes onto my piano as i have a lesson at 10 am, and then having lunch with Teddy and head down to Mid Valley to meet SONIA~~! XD. Still, this is FUN~!
1. Real Name : Vivien Cheng (People, TWO WORDS!! i have only TWO Words on my identification card! And you guys out there know perfectly well that i get so pissed when ppl asking my name expect me to give out my FULL NAME..as in the scenario below that happens for the gazillionth time)
At the doc's office:
Nurse: What's ur name? V : Vivien Cheng
*Nurse still waiting for more*
Nurse: What's ur full name
*rolls eyes*
V: Vivien Cheng is my full name
*repeats
Nurse:Whats your full name?
V: Vivien Cheng is my full name. I have only two words on my.....
Well, you get the picture...
2. Nick name : Ven, Vivianna, Vivi. 3. Married : *rolls eyes* 4. Male or female : Betina... 5. Hish School : SMK BBSP 6. College : Tarc 7. Short hair or long hair : Medium. (i try keeping long hair but i just cant resist chopping them off once they reach shoulder length =S ) 8. Are you a health freak ? : Unfortunately YES! (Big Apple donuts are lying naked with their bodies dipped in chocolate seducing me right now on my dining table) 9. Height: 161.5cm >.< (DAMN! Y am i so short?~! ) 10. Do you have a crush on someone? : Err...am i allow to answer this question now that i noe someone's invading my blog ?! 11. Do you like yourself? : *rolls eyes, flips hair* like...duh!? all the flowers bloom whenever i walk past them, how can i not like myself?! XD 12. Piercings : 2 on left ear , 3 on right ear . 13. Righty or left handed? : Right, though i wished i was an ambidextrous. That'd be superb! I can finish my homework in half the time i used normally!
16. First person you see in the morning : Myself...in the mirror! ^ ^ 17. First award : Kindergarden for some academics stuff... 18. First sport you joined : Swimming...sadly i have to give up swimming now .. 19. First pet : Gold fish...They all turned into black and just ..died...weird. 20. First vacation : Langkawi ...age 3 (Yes, i do remember that tho i was only 3....i surprise myself at times XD) 22. First crush : Kindergarden!
23. Eating : Jacobs cream craker 24.Drinking : Milo 25. I'm about to : fall asleep......Zzzzz 26. Want kids: Absolutely 27. Want to get married : TCH..Hello?!..Im a girl! What do u think?! 28. Careers in mind : Rule the world...
30. Hugs or kisses : Kisses 31. Shorter or taller : Taller 33. Sensitive or loud : Loud..
37. Lost glasses/contacts : Always searching for my contacts on my bathroom floor
38. Ran away from home : No...like i'd ever leave my comfort zone.. 39.Liked someone younger : *thinks thinks* 40. Liked someone older : YES! 41.Broken someone's heart: Err...Yes??? 42.Been arrested : i am not stupid 43.Cried when someone died : Cried my heart out 44. Liked a friend : Sigh...Yes...
46. Miracles : happen..once in a while.. 47. Heaven : NO, unless it is where i can have unlimited supplies of my Chicken Rice and Milo....XD 49. Angels : Sure! Cupids especially!
51. Do you believe in god : i believe in karma....does that count?!
PEOPLE I'M TAGGING : 1. Nishanti!!!!!!! 2.Chu Ling! 3.Micheal Ooi 4.Teddy !! (Finally you have something to post on ur blog~!) 5. Sow Lei Yan !XD 6. Jasmin Lim!
*Vivien laughs hysterically and satanically at her victims!* So many things, so little $$$...!Dear ppl,
just 20 minutes ago, my mobile just died. Yes, i know it sucks. And the most important thing is that all my contact numbers are stored in the phone memory itself. And though i saved them in the sim card as well, there are many in which i have left out. I dont even have Teddy's number in it! Imagine how long ago since i have updated the numbers in my sim. Damn im pissed. DAMN!!!! *curse curse curse*
*********** Vivien breathes REALLY REALLY hard***************************
Anyways, i had a great outing today with Teddy and met up with Sonia after her gym! ^^ I checked out the ipod shuffle that me and bro wanted.hmm..the 2G is so out of my budget..but i managed to get a friend who could get staff price for me! And its REALLY CHEAP. But still, i must not get too excited about it! As i await for the good news from my friend who needs to DOUBLe confirm the prices to me with such rampant anxiety (i seriously doubt that the ipods are of genuine given the price but the company is a really famous company that is in the retaling field!), this stupid thing happened. =.= ME HATE!!! Given the circumstances, what would you guys do?! Does fate have it that i need a new hp?! NO, NOT now pls...i need my money for my ipod shuffles..! *sob sob....sniff sniff* Seriously, i have not gone all lachrymose over this whole thing, not because i dont want to! But because i cant! No tears are coming out of my eyes lar..Argh, i wanna cry! over not practising enough of my piano and this stupid mobile and my ipod shuffle and my stupid students with idiotic, ignorant parents and to renew my membership in gym!
The gurl needs money ppl........
Sigh . sigh. sigh
The thought of the ice kacang and also the dessert that teddy had when we went up to the foodcourt near the cinema was indeed a really comforting one right now. How i wish i could have those dessert rite now! Thats the only thing that can comfort my soul thats burning in the realms of hell right now.... And yes, by now you would have known that im a really conscientious person, who worries over every itty bitty things and get stressed over them. oh yeah, did i tell u that im also extrememly calculative, Hey, im an aspiring accountant! what do you expect! Every cent is worth something too! Oh that just reminds me ... i had my eyes on the DKNY perfume pack. there is also another bottle of the men perfume. Sigh. I need lotsa $$$$$$$$$ !!!
And those books in Mph, screeming their lungs out for me! Oh how i wish i can bring those babies home! They are practically calling out for me! " MOMMA MOMMA!!! BRING ME HOME". at which i replied " WAIT babies, ur momma's gonna need more cash before she can bring u home"..arrghh...heck. i dont even know wat the crap am i talking here.
The gurl needs to slaughter some salmons to ease her frustration.
Toodles. March 29 They shoot Vivien , don't they?!olla bloggers,
so here i am, soaking in a wet bra, after a whole two hours at the gym. (note to self: never wear shirts that repel sweat)
Thai kick boxing was really fun! I went for the cycling class and straight down to the thai kickboxing class. It's taught by an angmo mix thai named Dennis N'guyen! Very fun. Sweating like i never did! Better than Body Pump and Bdy Combat cos it NEVER stops!!!
Sigh. Yesterday was such an awful day for me,to be moved out of my comfort zone at level2 of my company along with my crazy colleagues, the young ones, (not the old, arrogant, snobbish old people that shoot an innocent 19 year old like me!!!), having thrown a stack of documents to prepare one hour before my clock out time, being blast at openly, being locked out of my office cos my access card can't open the doors after 6pm. =.= Very hectic. Can't they see i'm not tense! I'm just trying my very best to finish off my work load properly! Perfectionism is NOT a crime! ok fine, it's an illness though! =.=
My colleagues were being invited to lunch with their manager a day before but Moon accompanied me for lunch. EEEEii, i was soo happy!!! XD You have no idea, i was being so closely monitored. My every slight movement being zoomed 10 times! By the risk management team sitting behind me, two managers and 2 more old people sitting near me.pifz.
Vivien is a happy girl.
Vivien is a happy girl.
Vivien is a happy girl.
Vivien is a happy girl.
Vivien is a happy girl.
Vivien is a happy girl.
Vivien is a happy girl.
Vivien is a happy girl.
Must chant at least 15 times everyday before stepping into office!!
Ciao people.
oh yeah, teddy and zebra are starting afresh. ^^
March 25 I work best with Jacobs!!Yo bloggers,
I had a really hectic day today! I was so free in the morning til the extent that i practically finished preparing all the tuition materials that i'm supposed to prepare for my student. BUT, this blissful moment came to a sudden halt at exactly 3.45pm when 2 resignations letter was tendered to me following by 6 other letters tendered to me. Why la ppl...*fumes*, just when i thought i could end my end without any stress and letters of all kinds started pilling up on my desk. Not to mention loads emails to reply, to be forwarded, visa application, credit card applications , exit interviews and countless phone calls for me and also for Angie. MAN was it harder to breathe! I think half of my brain stopped functioning at that time as i wasn't feeling hungry. XD HAHA. Moreover, i didn't take my lunch fully as the vege was so bitter. Swt.
Anyway, it has really got me to prioritize my stuff on hand. I wasn't pressured though, i was just so antsy about my mum waiting for me outside TPM. Sigh...So, here i am, enjoying my tea and a mouthful of raisins! Oh yeah, there's this really really nice Jacob's wholemeal biscuits that arrived in the late evening at my office's pantry! COOL ! XD it's really nice, got me munching them while i was multi tasking back at my place! XD AH~~ so it is true! Good things DO come in small packages! So gonna munch all of those yummy biscuits tmr!
Okay, my addiction is back on...neeedddddd Miillloooooooooo..........!! *crawling towards Milo cabinet*
Toodles People~~~ !! ^^ March 21 Looking like a drag
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March 20 Slaughtering SalmonsHey wordpress,
argh, damn i hate my digicam. It's not behaving again. Stupid cam.
I just came back from giving a replacement class for my student! Im THISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS CLOSE to exploding at her today. And her concentration is like THISSSSSSSSSSSSSS CLOSE to zero! For bahasa melayu, im totally MAXING out at Form 3 level. The peribahasa gives me one hell of a time searchign for the meaning. And my student just loves blasting me with her relentless stories about her school, her friends and ghost stories, i have to literally shake her and say " hey girl! CONCENTRATE and finish this!" ...go figure.
And all the Leos i know are behaving so different today. Sonia is like soooo moody, my god, her words are totally openly hostile. And she's accusing me of trying to provoke her. Such attrocious approximations ! =.= Guess what, i woke up automatically at 9 am today! without alarm ! Without my mother's screeches through the hall ! Whoa, there's definitely something wrong with Leos today. Is it cos Venus is blocking Mars from the sun or something today!? Isn't this the horoscopes on the newspapers use to write? This planet is aligned with this planet...and stuff like that.
And all of a sudden my bro can master solo pieces on Luna which is so frustrating to me. And because only today i found out that there are so many things to catch up on my scales. The piano exam is really getting on my nerves. I know i have written on my resume that i would work til 25th of May, but since they say im only temporary, i can leave "anytime", which also means when they manage to get the permanent staff. wth. I want to leave one month earlier so that i can focus on my piano. Sigh. So many things, so little time.
Ah, i think im feeling so much better now. Oh yeah, i threw my teddy bear into the washing machine for a wash today since it's so dusty. And my mum hung him like it was jesus's cruxification! Its so hilarious, i didn't manage to get a photo of him ! Haha. Poor teddy... He's the only teddy bear i have in my room tho..XD
There is just something with a hot cup of milo. I feel inexplicably relaxed and a thousand times better after drinking it on an angry night like this!
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